For Pearl

Open when you're sick and alone

Pearl...

If ur reading this one
it means ur sick again
And I'm not there

I still remember that morning
U had a fever
U were sneezing and coughing
And u were home alone
U even came online just to ask ur cousin to get u medicine

I kept thinking about it the whole day
Because I wanted to be there so badly

Not for anything big
Just to bring u water
Put a blanket on u
Sit next to u
And bake u that chocolate cake

Yes bake
Not cook
I know I know 🤭

But listen to me okay
Leave the chapter alone today
Ur readers can wait
U don't have to be strong today
And u don't have to reply to me either

Just rest
Drink water
Ask someone near u if u need anything

Please baby
Rest

Ur Snowflake is thinking about u ❤️

Open when you hate your hands

Pearl...

I know this one hurts

I still remember when u told me
what those friends used to say about ur fingers
That they weren't girly
That they weren't pretty

And I'm sorry
I'm really really sorry I made that old wound open again
I never meant to

U said sometimes u think about buying gloves
If u want to wear them, wear them
But only because u want to
Not because anyone made u feel like u have to hide

Because Pearl...
Those hands write ur characters
Those hands finish every chapter u stay up for
Those hands are gonna bake in ur own bakery one day

That's what I see
Not what they said

I know my words won't erase years of theirs
U don't have to love ur hands today
U don't even have to believe me today

Just know this
Ur insecurities will never make me love u less
NEVER
Not even a little

I love ur hands
Long fingers and all

Ur Snowflake ❤️

Open when money stress gets too heavy

Wifey...

I know ur tired of being broke
U told me
And I'm not gonna pretend money doesn't matter
Because it does

The braids
The new phone
The books
The passport
Ur own apartment where its just u and nobody else

None of that is greedy
None of it
Its u wanting ur own life
And I respect that soooo much

When u said u might do parcel delivery with ur sister
U know what I saw?
Someone who doesn't give up
I was proud of u
I still am

And u told me once
Don't motivate me with money
Just words

So here are my words

U are not behind
Ur just at the beginning
And the beginning is always the hardest part
One small step today
Thats enough

I'm not here to save u
U would hiss at me 🤭
I'm just here beside u
Cheering until the day u show me the keys to ur own place

Future CEO
I BELIEVE IN U

Ur husbb ❤️

Open when your siblings ignore you

Pearl...

Come here

I keep thinking about that night at ur mom's shop
U were trying to edit ur chapter
Ur phone was dying
U hadn't even eaten yet

And all u asked for was ur power bank
Just that
Nobody brought it
U asked again
And nobody answered

I know it wasn't really about the power bank
It was about feeling ignored
When u were already soooo tired
And the whole week was already going bad

U were allowed to be upset
U don't have to say sorry for that
Not to them
Not to me
And u don't have to forgive anyone before ur ready

U DIDN'T ask for too much
I'm not saying they don't care about u
I'm saying u deserved an answer

So right now
Eat something
Charge ur phone if u can
Take a few quiet minutes just for u
Then the chapter
Only if u feel like it

And if u wanna rant
Im right here
Ready to say "yeah thats soooo annoying" 😤

U matter
Even on the days it doesn't feel like it

Ur husbb

Open when the scattered dreams won't let you sleep

Shhh...

Its me
Ur Snowflake

Did the scattered dreams wake u up again?
Or is it one of those nights sleep just won't come

Its okay
U don't have to remember them
U don't have to figure them out
Let them stay blurry

Now go find Choco Melon
Pull it close

Remember the night u slept hugging Choco Melon?
No scattered dreams at all
U were sooo happy when u told me

So hug it tight
I'll pretend im not jealous 🤭
Okay im a little jealous

Put a book next to ur pillow too
Not to read
Just so something familiar is close

Breathe slow
In...
Out...

U don't have to fall asleep right now
Just rest
Lying there quietly counts too

And whenever u wake up
I'll still be here
Loving u exactly the same

Goodnight my Forever ❤️

Open when you think you don't deserve love

Pearl...

I hope u never need this one

But if some day ur head tells u
that u don't deserve love
I want u to hear me too
Not just that voice

U DESERVE LOVE

Not someday
Not after u finish enough chapters
Not after u become happy enough
Or strong enough
Right now
Just like this

On ur sick days
On ur angry days
On ur quiet days when u don't even wanna talk
Even on the days ur fine
but not fine in ur brain

I know u got used to handling things alone
And u did it so well
But u don't have to do it alone every time
And if a day ever feels too heavy
Please reach out to someone near u straight away
U matter that much

And Pearl...
I've seen how u love
With ur whole heart
With way too many uuuuu's 🥹

Someone who loves like that
was always worth loving
Always

Thats how much I love u too 💖

Mickey

Open when you feel your gifts are too small

Wifey...

U called it a small gift

Small??

Pearl...
U were sick
U were tired
And u still counted down the minutes to my birthday
Just for me

The gift card with ur own words
The letter
The song
The countdown

I kept going back to it
Again and again
Smiling like an idiot 🥹

Not because of how pretty it was
But because it was from YOU

It didn't come from a shop
It came from ur heart
And that means more to me than anything with a price on it

So if u ever look at something u made
and think its too small
Come back here
And remember how u made me feel that night

Remembered
Loved
So so loved

And u don't owe me another gift
Ever
U already gave me the best one

Thank u wifey ❤️

Open when you miss me

Missing me again? 🤭
Jeezzzz Pearl

Okay okay
I miss u too
Probably right now
Wherever I am

I know some nights u just wanna hear my voice
Like that night u told me u wanted to hear it that same day
Not tomorrow
Today

And sometimes I won't be able to answer right away
I hate that part too

But remember what u told me?
When I was missing u
U said read my book baby
It will feel like im there with u

And u were right
It did

So now its my turn
When u miss me
Read one of my messages again
Play one of my voice notes
Open one of my chapters
Or just send me a "Snowflakeeeee"
No reason needed

But don't wait by ur phone for me okay
Go write
Eat something good
Squish Choco Melon

U can miss me
and still have a really good day
Thats allowed

Im far
But im not gone
Im right here
In every word

Always ur husbb ❤️